Scarf

-Scarf-
15-03-2012

I lived in the dark with a black scarf covered my eyes..
Alone and blind..
One day u came and offered so much laugh and brought many smiles..
You pulled me from the dark, threw the scarf, then rained me with your lovely words n cares.



You taught me the warmth of light..
You taught me the beauty of sight..
You taught me how to throw the fear..
You taught me a good way to sing..
You taught me how to love that I didn't know before..

No need a month to learn it and addicted!!
Too early, but I've already nailed your lessons in mind..

But lately, your words in your notes woke me..

I thought you'll be here to walk with me and show me the beauty of life..
I thought you'll chase my fears, grab my hands, sing a song and dance with me..
I thought you'll teach me how to love you and love my self too..
I thought you'll beside me to live not only in the light but also the dark..
Furthermore, I realized, you left me here lonely..
Where should I go, I don't even know!
I can't cry! Coz you don't teach me how to cry..
I can't call your name loud! Coz u don't teach me how to speak out..

You left me alone.
You left my scarf.
You left my heart a scar.

I stand here.
Silent.
Can't find u anywhere.


I hate the light.
It hides you from me.
The light only be hidden in the light.
Coz for me, you are my light.

Now I sit in here.
'till you grab my hands.
teach me to cry.
wipe my tear.
smile to me.
hug me to heal my scar and my fear.
walk with me to enjoy the light, and through the dark.

Now I sit in here.
I take my scarf.
Set it on my eyes.
Sit in here, still in the light.
But with the darkness in my sight.
Waiting for u.
To open my eyes.
To love me.
To stand beside me and see the love in my eyes.
That I keep only for u.

*christa*
15-03-2012